I worked so hard to loose this weight. I was in my late 20’s in this picture and did crazy workouts and restrictive eating. I’ve struggled what feels like my entire life with this issue. I was picked on in elementary school for being short and chubby with glasses. I was the chubby cheerleader on the bottom holding the skinny girls up. In High School I took dangerous diet pills and starved myself but then binge ate along with it. Back and forth and loosing and gaining and I know you understand this, friend. This has been your story too or something similar. I’ve been on what feels like every diet there is. It’s been told that it’s just something I will always struggle with. It’s genetics, generational, blah blah and so on. I’ve broken the word curses. I’ve broken lies. I’ve repented for idolatry and gluttony. I’m covered in the blood of Jesus I have done all the things I know to do and yet… Those 60 pounds are back, I am now in my 40’s, and I’ve been fighting the same 5-10 lbs for about 2 years. I would love to just lose 10lbs at this point and keep it off.

I felt an urgency last fall to get a personal trainer. Honestly it was so much deeper than just asking for help. I have learned a lot about myself in the last 6-7 months. I’ve learned how much I have trained my brain to just give up when it’s painful or uncomfortable. I’ve learned how much I don’t believe in myself or even really like myself. I’ve learned I just really enjoy hiding. HOWEVER enough is enough and God is calling me out! He is calling out the woman He created…. the warrior! I know I am a mighty warrior I just needed to surrender to find her! I know I can do what I put my mind to I just needed to get my grit back, my voice back! I needed to ROARRRRRRR again! Now it’s time to fuel my body properly. I feel the urgency. It’s like I needed that foundation first to just consistently work out now let’s build upon that. I personally can not set a big goal. I have to take one day at a time! I am asking for prayer in this. This is a weakness that I really want strengthened but I am aware I need help. I can’t do this on my own in my own strength. I need the power of the Holy Spirit in me and this will be a daily surrender. I desire to eat foods that give me strength and energy to endure this journey and keep running this race. I can no longer binge on processed crap that is meant to steal kill and destroy. It keeps me weighed down, bloated, tired, depressed, etc. I need to feel light and have a clear mind. Sober minded!! I have to be sober minded in these last days!! No more “I will start Monday.” I start TODAY!! I’ve wasted enough time but God in His grace redeems the time lost! Praise God!!! I want my life back! No more just surviving!! It’s so much deeper than a number on a scale I don’t even care about that anymore I just want to feel good in my clothes. I don’t want to wake up with hurting joints and pain in my knees. I want to be able to stand for an hour worshipping God and not get tired or be distracted because my pants feel tight or I can feel cortisol belly protruding! I want God to get the glory in every area of my life and this area is next to focus on!! I believe it will partner well with a surrendered mind. When I was praying asking Him for help with my thought life that’s when I felt an urgency to get my nutrition in check. It goes together and God is sooooo full of wisdom and imparts that wisdom in His children when we ask. AHHHHHH He is so faithful! I know I will have breakthrough in this! I feel so full of faith and what a gift that is. I am not defeated! It is a gift to be able to try again. It is a gift to have so many delicious food choices! It is a gift to live this life and an honor to live it for God! He gets all the glory!

If you need help in this area as well please reach out. If you are interested in me publicly sharing this journey more please let me know. I want to encourage you and remind you that You are an overcomer!!